i didn't know how to organize this section as music is my most consumed media ever, and i don't really pay attention to genres of what i'm listening to... i'd say i mostly listen to electronic/experimental/outsider music( doesn't that sound pretentious?) but really i do love every genre i've come across.

my newest discovery was brought to me by RPG MAKER game Re-Kinder (i'll have to write on it as soon as i finish it!) as i was falling asleep to a gameplay of it, one song struck out to me. while searching for the corresponding OST, i discovered that Parun, creator of aforementioned game, used many different source materials for it. after a little digging i found that the song was actually part of self-titled EP "Terror at the opera" from 2004... turns out its integrity is a masterpiece of nostalgia and eeriness. here's the song in question



recently i got back into the vocaloid electronic/experimental music, it was actually my first contact with ambient and breakbit music lol
i don't know if it's everyone's cup of tea, but i do really like sakizakisaki !!!(﨑﨑﨑) their songs feel like a construction site/ garage music from the 2000's. such a shame they're inactive now.




ok so now i have to pour out all my love for vocaloid experimental producers... here we go lol
i absolutely adore this song by Hikkie-p. i don't know why i haven't stumbled into it before.i love the simplicity and the emotion this song vehiculates



(can you believe the music video is actually made in Excel.....)

okay, so this section is named "films" bc i didn't know how to name it differently but actually i wanted to present here all of my favorite video media (but "video media" is an ugly ass title, sooooo..)
i guess the easiest way of letting you know my films recommendations is by directly linking my letterboxd (made for the main purpose of actually REMEMBERING what i watch) and making small updates of things i watch and like.

what i can directly tell you, is that my main favorites titles are :

here i'll try to compile all my favorite artists and inspirations.

i love with a deep passion gekidan inu curry. duo of artists "2shiroinu" and "doroinu", they are responsible for puella magi madoka magica's (my favorite all time anime) astonishing collages.




while searching the internet i found about "Nishioka Kyoudai", a duo of mangaka artists. so far i have read "kami no kodomo" and "jigoku". i can't really recommend the first one as it is very brutal and graphic and i don't know how i feel about the story. the second one i a compilation of one shots and is fascinating to read.i wish there were more content about them online as buying their works is kind of complicated (and my japanese is still not very good" anyway, i hope i can manage to read all their stories,their art style is so unique and ethereal.



one artist that i love deeply is Yuko Tatsushima. many of you may have seen the creepypasta "tomino's hell" and its troubling, fascinating painting illustrating the story. well the original title is "i can no longer be a bride" and is the work of tasushima, who i deeply love her paintings.
some of my favorite works from her :

i don't own any of the videos presented here !! for me, a lets play of a game i want to try is way more representative that a simple image. that's why!

i am a real sucker for early 2000's PC games.
when i was a kid my mom was playing Sanitarium (yes..) on our old family PC and even if i was terrified of this game i played it as soon as i was old enough to comprehend english. i can only recommend this game i love the ambiance of it.
(here's a longplay)

idk if this is the game that started my love for early 3D models, but it definitely helped.
i remember discovering The museum of anything goes and being absolutely in LOVE with it. the concet of an interactive 3D gallery was so fun to me and especially the general randomness of this game. i am still looking for a way to play it on my new Mac tho ! definitely not a good choice for old indie games.
i can't seem to find a longplay for it but it's a game you need to experience by yourself anyway.

this being said, my first videogame love was definitely yume nikki. (does that surprises anyone?)
i was about 12 when i discovered it, being in my RPG maker games era (that i never really left, but oh well..)
i think it was the best time in my life to play it.
not too long after i played its main fangames (yume 2kki (which i am still frequently playing ), LCDDEM...) but .flow is the one that hit me the most, and if i have to really name my favorite game, it would me this one. i bet its not too difficult to see the similarities in my aesthetic!

i highly recommend every one of Osamu Sato's games. i will include him in the "artists" section of this page too but speaking about his games, he really has a graphic style of his own.
i don't have to present to you LSD Dream Emulator, as it is already very well know (and is probably a part of Kikiyama's inspiration for yume nikki), but i can suggest you to check Eastern Minds:The Lost Souls of Tong-Nou series, and my personal favorite , Rolypolys no nakakorobiyaoki (i couldn't translate this one, apparently "nanakorobi yaoki" refers to a japanese proverb about not giving up "falling seven times and getting up eight")
it's an educative game to learn english with really interesting graphics !