i was a pink-haired girl ( knowing what will happen next , maybe a very not subtle reference to Mirai Nikki?) getting back in what seemed to be my apartment. entering the hall, i noticed a boy i was going to school with was following me ( it was someone who was constantly trying to impress me in a very invasive way, and probably with a romantic interest in mind, without completely noticing how cringed it made me feel.) i ignored him and got into my flat. there was a grey cat who transformed into, apparently, a character from my past, since their name was written on the original retranscription of this dream but as of now is impossible to replace. he was trying to make me admit i was a dangerous person with murderous intents and i.. confessed immediately to it ? the cat/man then tried to flee by the window but i crushed his skull between the casement (unsure of this word) the lover boy from the hall appeared from under my bed and was trying to start a conversation, so i decided to frame him for the murder by locking him in my flat.

this dream is the first documented one of my numerous violent dreams.

-an event taking place in a huge squat / concert venue. i was trying to convince ████████ to keep living with me for some obscure reason. my attempts all failed. once again, i used the deux ex machina : simply by thinking of another scenario, i would go back in time and replay the interaction (although every outcome was unsuccessful).

-attempt one: enraged, i tried to destroy ████████'s supposed business, which somehow revolved around apple juice (??)

-attempt two: i think after the discussion she claimed she was going to bed. an absolutely wild adventure awaited me… because I simply couldn’t get back home ; i kept watching the entire route I was supposed to take, in real time, and yet… it never happened. i felt trapped in some kind of drug-induced psychosis?? hard to explain, but the distress i felt was intense.

i eventually called her; in fact she was still partying.

i don’t remember the other attempts.

i dreamed that you were leaving me. twice;two days in a row.
the first time, i tried to take refuge at ███████'s place, but he was unavailable.
the second time, i was paralyzed by madness; i wanted to slit your throat with a carving knife.

then tragedy struck.
you left me the next day.

and many others…. a whole string of dreams in which i beg, comfort, and cry over ████████. to start the day off right. this description may not be very graphic, but the violence inflicted on my real self was. everything passes .

-i don’t know how to structure this story… the action took place in a psychiatric / penitentiary / scientific experimentation center, it wasn’t clear.

there was no way to escape. the dream began with a bike ride of all the residents / inmates; they-

-were desperately trying to leave because they heard about some kind of big… torture event?(some kind of purgatory games where one or more people had to hang from a hanger on a cross suspended over a void. i saw a glimpse of it at some point) however the institute exists in some kind of closed dimension, so they can’t escape.

no POV this time; i was watching everything like a movie, following the different characters in this center.

-a tall, slender woman with a tan complexion and a ponytail. she lostlost her cat, or it had been taken from her. one night, she discovers a passage in the building that led to a basement painted like a circus, with several tents,like some kind of vaccination center.

it was apparently a module where the patients were “judged” based on the disorders that had brought them to the hospital, through small tests, i think. the woman succeeded and found her cat. there was also a room with swimming pool showers.

-a girl who looked a lot like the actress joey king. her name was something cute like Jolie? Chouchou?

the girl discovered she had witch-like powers. nothing was specified about her role in the scenario, but she was the only one to “survive” the big event. she managed to escape on a canoe, years later, she decides to return to where it all happened, only to find that everything has been destroyed, and the basement where the “games” had taken place is completely sealed off. one of the “culprits” (it seemed they were aliens) attacks her and traps her on a roof, setting fire to the ruins of the center.

-a nurse from the complex, resembling jessica lange. we follow her daily routine. at some point, she enters a large staff room that looks like a theater backstage and borrows a hairdryer.

other unnamed characters: a tall guy, a lesbian teenager who lives outside the complex, a doppelgänger of ████.

(not written but conclusion: i watched too much creepcast episodes.)